NOOR KAUR RAI
Diary
February 2007
Doaba, Punjab
Somewhere in the Doaba region of Punjab.
He left…
but something stayed.
We stood there as he walked away,
as if time had paused just long enough
for something inside me to change.
He thought he would come back.
And maybe…
so did I.
December 2008
Doaba, Punjab
Somewhere in Doaba, Punjab.
Even though we spoke every day…
I missed the part of him
I could not reach.
The nights have become longer.
The village sleeps…
but my thoughts don’t.
There are things I cannot say out loud.
Not to anyone.
So I let them stay inside me…
until they turn into silence.
January 2009
Doaba, Punjab
One month before my wedding.
I made the final call.
Who you truly are…
what stood between us…
and why our story could never exist in the open—
only I know.
And I will never say it out loud.
We still speak.
We still try to hold onto something.
But in one month…
I will belong to a life that was never mine.
Since you left for Surrey,
I can feel something changing in you.
The life you imagined…
is not becoming what you thought it would be.
This is my final call.
Not because I stopped caring…
but because I never will.
—
Noor knows.
And she never tells it.
2009
Doaba, Punjab
As the wedding preparations began,
I felt myself slowly disconnecting from everything around me.
The life I once imagined…
was quietly slipping away.
Note
In The Unhappy Bride, Noor’s romantic life lives in another chapter. He is not seen here…but he never really leaves her.
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